I am listening to Alanis Morisette's "You Learn" as I write this afternoon, and it at the present moment it's really striking a chord with the events in my life. For the past month, I feel like I've had "my heart trampled on" and while it's caused me enough pain and anxiety to last for the remainder of the year, as I listen to her repeat "you learn" over and over it makes me see the sun through this cloudy mess. It's so easy to feel overwhelmed, embarrassed, manipulated, and empty but we learn so much in these moments, it ultimately makes us a more complete person. While I'd like to think that people don't hurt each other, I know, and have experienced firsthand the unfortunate effects of humanity's evils. It was depressing me the other night, as I was contemplating how people can honestly be so hurtful. I was thinking and came up with this: not all people are bad, if we just keep pushing through the tough times, and continue treating others the way we would like to be treated, we will eventually find the good. I keep hearing the phrase "karma is a bitch" and find myself wondering if maybe this is indeed true. Life is cyclical, what we project eventually rebounds back and we must consider this before the moment we are in the receiving end. In spite of the recent disappointment I've been feeling, the most influential statement I've heard from friends has been this, "don't change. Don't change who you are, or let yourself become bitter towards relationships. Don't let him ruin your spirit." The more I consider this advice, the more I agree. Why let someone bring you down, when it's ultimately going to be affecting you? Why surround yourself in negativity, when you weren't ever there to begin with? Why think in darkness, when there is so much light around us? This may seem on the philosophical side, but it's true. We each have the ability to make our lives what we want them to be. I want to live in love and peace, and that's exactly what I'm going to do.
